I got back my common test results, and I really thank God for letting me do the best I could have done. I thought Math was a sure-fail , but it turned out, to my surprise, that I managed to get a distinction (Grade 6). I was a little disappointed with English, and especially Econs, where I got a grade 5 for both. But at least I’m really happy I did well for Physics and Chemistry, which got Grade 7. It turned out from this exam that Chemistry is my strongest subject, followed by Physics. Even though I de-proved overall by one point from last year’s promos (38 points), I think my results are fine at the moment. At least it gives me ample room to improve before the final exam, and hopefully I peak at the right time.

For the past month, I’ve been thinking really hard, trying to find out what’s wrong with tf attendance. I know attendance isn’t the only indicator of healthy growth, and it’s not the most important. But not knowing why this is happening makes me feel worse as a tuan zhang. I kept asking myself whether there was anything I wasn't doing right, wondering if it was my fault, and sometimes even thinking if I should have taken up the role this year. Well, till now, I don’t have an answer - I can’t account for the dismal attendance. But what Jacky told me today has given me a new perspective on things – those who come are truly seeking spiritual growth. So I could see it as like some sort of “pruning”, filtering those who truly want to be involved in fellowship, and those who aren’t really sincere about it. Sorry if I offend anyone, because I truly don’t mean to. In fact, I hope this serves as both encouragement and advice. Skipping church to pursue something else “for the glory of God” is something I feel strongly against, and which I find quite ironic.

Wow it’s been quite a while since I posted.. Now, I’m finally enjoying my long overdue June holiday. I’m going to relax all I want this long weekend (since I don’t have papers on Monday and Tuesday next week) before school starts again on Wednesday.

My exams went fine I guess. I’m quite happy with Physics, Chem and Econs, and as usual, I’m worried about English, but I guess it didn’t go too badly. Yes, the subject I’m most worried about is Math. I didn’t expect the first paper to be so hard. There were quite a few questions that stumped me, and they really threw me off course till I didn’t have any confidence for the rest of the paper, making my performance even worse. For the second paper, I didn’t die so badly because I was already mentally aware that I’d have to find some way to rescue my marks, so tough or not, I’d have to fight the questions out.

Ah well, I’ll see how when the results are finally out. I my marks will be in decreasing order: Physics, Chem/Econs, English, Math. Hopefully I can scrape 39 points to improve by one point this year.

Anyway, yesterday, after the last 2 papers, I went out with some people in my class to Pizza Hut for lunch. At night, I went for the President’s Young Performer’s Concert with Jie Ying, and it was an enjoyable one. I still smile to myself whenever I think of what the person sitting behind us said during the intermission..

I’ll be going to Universal Studios with my class on Monday. I hope I don’t throw up or anything after the rides. I’m really not an adventurous person.